When I finally realized my true individualistic nature, everything changed for me. I say this because a lot of artists out there are similar in nature and it could take a lifetime for a person to "discover" and deal with his/her inadequacies, particularly because we are taught since childhood to become "Team Players" and to fit in, so we keep on banging our heads against the same wall without positive results.
I do enjoy sharing knowledge, my blogs are an example of just how much I love sharing, so for me it's not a question of selfishness, really. The issue is that in my twisted mind I always know (or think I know) I can do things better when I have full control over my work. I'm convinced that no one cares as much as I do for my own stuff, this is false, there are people who do care but it is hard for me to read people's true intentions and to give up control.
I am not interested in controlling others or their work or their money, just my own. I have no hidden agendas, I make it very simple: it's all about me, all of the time. I have no desire of being the leader of any group or for that matter the spokesman for anybody or anything, I can barely take care of myself as it is. I don't care one bit about building empires or taking over the world, it takes too much from my drawing time, however, I must confess I do have a strong desire to do/build things of consequence, things that I hope will be here long after I'm gone. I want to leave something of artistic substance behind, other than the smell, what that would be? I don't know. It troubles me to think we come and go through this world like dogs, without at least attempting to change it for the better, in whatever little we can. I strongly believe in Art as a catalyst for change, real change, not bullshit political rhetoric.
In other words: don't fuck with me 'cause I sure as heck don't want to fuck with you, I'm too busy day-dreaming, not interested.
I may not be selfish but I am indeed full of myself (as you can tell by the length of this rant) or rather, individualistic to the core. Somehow I feel it's important that you, the person reading this, know where I'm coming from, just in case we ever meet and do 'business' together. I don't want you to get the wrong idea.
Even though I can't bear working
with others —my past experiences doing that for the most part, were not at all pleasant— I don't mind working
for others, provided I get to do what I want or at the very least have my creative input respected, as in the case of Brandstudio Press, something, which may I say, is nearly impossible to do when others are paying you to do what they want, so I don't take money in exchange for art anymore, I still owe a good friend, an Elvis commission and one day I'll surprise him for sure. I despise most art directors, and/or editors; I wholeheartedly believe the world's dependency on Middle Eastern oil would be drastically reduced if we could somehow gather all the art directors in this world and burn them for fuel.
Perhaps because I attended a catholic elementary and a military high school I developed a healthy dislike for authority figures, I hate being told what to do by lesser human beings than myself and to obey without questioning makes absolutely no sense to me, my hatred for cops and priests has been well-documented (by me, of course). And while I did suffer a great deal in those institutions, I also learned to seek and value my independence. By the same token, I hate telling others what to do, I don't mind giving advice but I don't want people under me, except my wife :P
Maybe all the aforementioned stuff is why I chose to work alone. Believe me, I've tried being part of teams and working in house for companies, but in the end I always wound up quitting or getting fired and going back to doing things my way, please don't get me wrong, it wasn't always my employer or collaborators who were at fault, most of the time it was my own fault, my heart was not in it, I often stopped giving a shit minutes after starting.
I have no fear of failure and no regards for money, everything I do is doomed to fail someday because I lack the desire to repeat myself and the key to success is consistency and repetition, that pretty much guarantees I will never become a rich man. This is particularly (and painfully) true in art, where in order to "make it" you have to do the same shit over and over and over again, once the public accepts you and your "style" they want you to continue repeating yourself until you die, the minute you decide to take an artistic risk to grow and explore, they drop you like a bad habit.
Failure, art and sex are the main driving forces in my life and you already know what I think of money; any asshole with half a brain can make money. It is so incredibly easy to put a few lines or colors together, no matter how crude or unrefined and come up with a "profound and mystical" meaning behind the crap you want to sell and have people throw money at you like it's going out of style, trust me, I've done that to fuck with people and I can tell you without a hint of hypocrisy, it's so easy, it's almost criminal.
People in general are gullible and they love being told how to feel, what to wear, what songs to listen to, etc.... they love to think that there has to be some deep and mind-altering meaning behind what you do, most people are incapable of understanding that artists sometime do things just for the fuck of it, they have to be spoon-fed a reason to like something, specially if the person brain-washing them is (or claims to be) a celebrity of some sort. I find no pleasure in doing that.
At one point I thought seriously about writing a book entitled "How to Make Money and be Financially Independent" but I figured it would be a waste of my time, nobody would buy it because the book wouldn't feature any celebrity success stories and all of my solutions would involve working hard, cultivating self esteem and living in the present, 3 things the people who buy these sort of books hate to do.
Donald Trump is the dumbest retard on two feet, every single time he opens his sewer of a mouth, shit flies all over the place and yet, he is one of the wealthiest men out there, or at least he claims to be (the fact that his daddy gave him a fortune so big, he couldn't lose it if he tried, didn't hurt none) enough said.
To make money for the sake of making money is not a challenge to me in the least, it's boring. I am wired like that; to make money doing things my way and to do it while going against everything they tell you in art and business schools, that is what I love.
I DON'T MAKE THINGS FOR MONEY AND IF YOU ARE AN ARTIST , NEITHER SHOULD YOU
I understand not everyone wants to be an independent artist, Brandstudio Press is not for everyone, most people are not art kamikazes, nor are they egocentric mad scientists conducting social experiments with axes to grind, not all artists are misfits like me. Most artists love collaborating with others, they love being part of something bigger than they are, that is a selfless and beautiful thing for sure, something I hold in the highest of regards, although sadly, not a trait I harbor. There are some who can balance working for the man and satisfying their need to do their own thing, I have lots of respect for these people and I welcome them with open arms, because they understand what we do.
Brandstudio Press is not the right fit for those who love having others do everything for them. If you don't want to get involved in publishing your own book and prefer to let others do it (even if that may mean exposing yourself to being taken advantage of) I understand. Doing it yourself does require some leg work and a decent amount of research and it's boring stuff, but don't despair, you are very lucky because there are thousands of publishers out there that can help you, you don't need me, Image Comics may be the perfect thing for you, they pay for and do everything, you do nothing. Lulu.com, Blur and other "Print on Demand" companies can also print and sell your efforts with minimum effort on your part and at a fraction of the cost
Barring a couple of exceptions, which merit my personal involvement, Brandstudio Press was created solely and exclusively to help people who want to help themselves. I don't charge a penny for my services but you MUST be involved somehow. You invest in yourself and you reap the rewards, yourself.
Think about it! there is nothing, I do mean NOTHING publishing companies (including Brandstudio Press) can do for your book that you, yourself can not do. Being an artist, you can put together your own book, there are many writings on the subject and free articles on line regarding the layout and design of books, they make it so ridiculously simple, just Google the words "self publishing" it's a crime to not do it yourself.
You can find a printer or I can recommend one for you, you can promote and advertise your book, you can submit your book to a distributor such as Diamond (whether or not they consider your book worthy of distribution is another thing), you can open your own PayPal account and sell it right off your blog or site, or put the book up on Amazon.com all by yourself. You can also purchase a booth or a table at any of the many conventions, nothing can stop you from doing that and from displaying your work and selling your books at these events. You don't need to be a so called "professional artist" to get a table at any of these shows, nobody knew who the fuck I was when I paid for my own space at the San Diego Comic Con, they took my money with a smile, just download the form and send the check, trust me, they WILL take your money, that's the one thing you can always count on: someone out there will ALWAYS take your money.
You can do anything you want but whatever you choose to do, don't have money as your main reason for self publishing because chances are you will be painfully disappointed, unless you happen to be a distributor, there is very little money in publishing no matter what the public's perception may be.
My goal with Brandstudio Press as it is now and going forward in whatever future re-incarnation, remains the same, publishing and co-publishing the most fun, helpful and inspirational books (and other goodies) by artists, for artists. like I said in previous posts, I don't give a shit about the so called "fans", they can fend for themselves.
In this new year I wish all of you all the love, health, prosperity and artistic independence you can possibly handle. May 2009 be the year in which you publish your own book. Have faith and believe in yourself, work hard at becoming better than you were in 2008, that should be your primary resolution, draw until your fingers bleed. There are no secrets out there, only solutions. Life is short, live it to the fullest.
Abrazos,
—Alberto
